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The mother of Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss, Connie Boss Alexander, is speaking out for the first time since his passing. As The Shade Room previously reported, the DJ passed by suicide at the age of 40 in December.
Alexander sat down for an exclusive interview with PEOPLE and reflected on her son’s passing.
“Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, and then other times it feels like it’s been so long since I’ve seen him.”
Additionally, the 59-year-old explained that she refrains from thinking of how her son passed away.
“When I think about him, I try not to dwell on how he left this earth…”
She continued by explaining that she believes “this not totally the end,” and that is where her “peace comes from.”
Despite this, the mother candidly admitted that she find herself in many moments of “introspection” regarding the days leading up to her son’s passing.
“You find yourself in a lot of introspection, a lot of looking back. Did I miss something? Did he mean something when he said this?…”
She went on to call her son’s passing “very, very shocking.” Then added that she’s unsure when she’ll be able to “accept it.”
“I don’t know when or if I’ll ever accept it. At this point, I’m in realization, I guess. When I wake up in the morning, it does hit me that, ‘Oh my God, he really is not physically here.’ But then in my head I can hear him say, ‘Hey, Mom. I’m okay.'”
All in all, Alexander summarized her grief by explaining, “Some days are better than others.”
Alexander recently shared a first Father’s Day message to her son in heaven via Instagram. In her message, the mother reflected on how difficult the day would be for his children.
“Dwelling on sweet memories, knowing how different and hard today is for your babies… I pray they felt your presence today and God wrapped them in peace. Happy Heavenly Father’s Day son…as a family we will always strive to ensure Wes, Maddox and Zaia know they are your greatest joy, blessings and legacy. So many precious moments with your loves.”
According to Page Six, Alexander briefly spoke out following her son’s passing in December. On one occasion, she took to her Instagram Story to share her wish of FaceTiming heaven.
“Oh if only I could FT to heaven…”
Before this, she thanked the public for their condolences.
“Family and friends, thank you for all the love, prayers and encouragement.
Please know I see all the messages, texts, posts and the phone calls. I can’t use words right now. Please know I will reach out when I can. Stephen Laurel, your mother loves you to eternity and beyond
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As The Shade Room previously reported, Boss was married to Allison Holker, and the two shared two children named Maddox, 6, and Zaia, 3. Furthermore, Boss also adopted Holker’s 14-year-old daughter, Elsie, from a prior relationship.
Roomies, please join us in sending continued condolences and prayers to Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss’ family!
